Janice Engel wrote:
Namaste my MA…
You are the hippest Guru and Matagiri is genius!
What great fortune all of us have to be able to connect our hearts in such a simple and intimate way to the Mother and each other.
To come home after a day and night of insanity that I call my work, and read your Darshans makes all that craziness seem so small and petty. Yet when I am in the midst, I try to hold tight to your feet my MA, and remember you in every breath, to be grateful for all of it.
How does one surrender beyond doership and attachment? And, what is the nature of surrender and does it happen?
I never quite understand how the surrender takes place. I just know that it seems to happen after I have completely worn myself out, where it feels like there is nothing left inside. Does it always have to be so painful and feel as if I am burning from the inside out?
I realize that it’s not the job itself. That is just a catalyst for all my fears to come up. And, yet even though I have this awareness, I watch myself fall …actually dive right into the fire of my fears and let them overwhelm me.
MA, I love you madly. Just know that whatever you place upon my plate I will try to devour. Maybe with some kicking and screaming along the way but in the end, I have no choice…you are my Guru, my Mother, my life
all my love…Ganga.
JAI SHREE GANESHA JAI SHREE LAXSMI MA KI JAI
l.A. GANGA
Namaste my Ganga, my River.
All suffering cease to be when one surrenders at the feet of the Guru. Yet so many have to learn that the hard way. If only my Chelas would surrender early on they would have so much less pain. Yet you all wait and focus in your head instead of your heart until it becomes so hard to live with out surrender. Oh my God it is wonderful to be a puppet for my God, my Guruji and my Mother Kali. The funny thing is that when you surrender to the Guru you are surrendering to your self. I love you my daughter with all my heart and your wife. Yes I did say wife. I have two rivers in L.A. I love you all. Love Ma JAI SHREE GANGA MA KI JAI