Om Ganesha. Namaste my wonderful Uma. Listen my darling. I love your personality. I love your love for the Mother and the joy you have in living your life at the feet of your Mother. My Uma, do you not understand all you have to let go of is the anchor of the boat and let the Mother sail you right into God and all the self love in the world. There is a exciting journey ahead of you my Uma. Sit back and relax. I got you. I will hold you tight as I show you how to love my Uma. Love Ma Jai Kali Ma KI Jai
Uma Simon wrote:
Dear Ma: Lately I feel as if I in a boat slowly being drawn towards some kind of intense Niagra Falls; and that I don’t have a choice anymore of getting out of this boat. I do know that if I got out now, my life would just be flat and grey. Nevertheless, my ego-mind says, “Hold on to the shore, Uma, if you can.” because letting go is giving up control and if you give up control there’s no more “me.”
So I’m trying to figure out what’s so great about “me.” I don’t think it’s my personality because there’s a lot better ones around. Is it my fear, anxiety or lack of faith that I love so much? I could give those up. Or am I afraid that God will ask me to do things that I don’t want to do. Yeah, that’s one of them. Just in case, however, I received reassurance from Shyam Baba that at this stage in my life I won’t be required to do roofing or cementing driveways.
What I have just arrived at now is the fear is that I will be alone , out in the cold somewhere with nobody familiar to hold my hand. So please take my fears away, Mother, because this boat is moving. Thank you, love, Uma