Om Ganesha,
Evening Pujas and Prayers
June 18, 2004
Namaste my chelas all over the world,
I have lost count of all the letters and cards and flowers and messages, yet each one touched me so very deeply.
The deep perception of love that is in all of you covers my whole Being like our Baba’s Blanket.
You are your own friend of your own spirit.
When you befriend your Holiness, you begin to befriend all of humanity.
You have unlocked your hearts to bring to your Ma a great solace.
You are learning from the Guru’s Words how to breathe with in and find such a revelation of compasion.
I have been teaching of Death for thirty one years this life time, perhaps at times it was watered down with spaces I was not willing to fill.
I have walked with Death, talked with Death, danced with Death, befriended Death and held the Ashes of my dead upon my own being.
The intuitive Shakti of the Kali Natha Yogi spreads from heart to heart.
The holy hold the holy and yes my chelas, all have holiness.
No one need to sink with bewildered thoughts into the sea of doubts or fear.
Hidden in the fringes of your heart is the ability to conquer and learn of death and life and death and life and all the bardos and intervals.
I have been teaching of Sacred Spaces or Cubby Holes or places that one gets caught in when living lives with burdens of jealousy anger pride indifference and so on.
Acknowledging these spaces one can enter into the Great Interior Cavern of your heart and become sensitive to your own needs and the needs of others.
As my son gave way to the sinking depression harsh to his young spirit, he gave me such love as he said Mommy I love you more then anyone upon this earth.
I was not untouched by words I have heard from so many and yet to hear it the night before our hands were not to be joined in life any more, will live and live as I serve with out any self protection of thought forms.
I will give, in my child’s name, JIMMY DIFIORE MEMORIAL FUND WHICH YOU HAVE SENT IN TO US IN MY SON’S NAME THE WAY AND MEANS FOR CHILDREN TO GO TO SCHOOL WITH OUT RAGS ON THEIR BACKS AND THE LACK OF BOOKS IN THEIR BAGS OR FOOD IN THEIR BELLY, THROUGH OUR FEED EVERY ONE PROGRAM.
And in our JIMMY DI FIORES NAME, THE ABILITY TO SEND MORE AND MORE CHILDREN TO AIDS CAMPS WHERE THEY WILL SEE A CLEAR SKY AND GREEN FIELDS THROUGH PROJECT RESPONSE.
Those who have had intravenous drips as they grew up with the AIDS Virus, will have a better chance now to be the same as those who have had the freedom of being able to eat, yes to simply eat and to grow and perhaps live a little or a lot longer.
The sapphire stars will beam upon these children and the moon will shine upon their faces.
Melting in dying harsh numbers in funeral pyres, maybe we can bring awarness to those who are depressed and turn to drugs at such an early age and continue using until death comes by their own hands and certainly their own hearts.
Let us, my chelas, inspect our own wounded hearts, fragments of perceptions, let us place THE GANGA’S OWN FLOWING RIVER INTO OUR BEINGS AND BECOME WHOLE ONCE AGAIN.
The Goddess will only enhance what you already know and never deplete love.
Are there spaces in your biography that you can not read for fear of depressed thoughts that bring on a depression so deep that you can not climb out of.
So many are so insecure in life and allow their energy to fall into the deepest bleakness that endlessly consumes the Soul.
The perfect choice does not exist.
One’s choices comes through intuition of the heart.
If their heart can not be empowered because the mind is dull by drugs, then choices are not your own.
Reading these words can bring to you the gift of clearness and one then can keep tract of choices that heal life, not take life.
I was sitting with our Baba Neem Karoli many years past or life times ago when I felt Him coming closer and closer to humanity. His whole Being became Brahma, Vishnu, and Shiva.
My whole body tingled and glowed with GOLDEN SHAKTI and I knew that I would follow my Guru to the ends of earth no matter what existing negative or positive conditions I shall live through in the moment.
I also learnt in that moment the GREAT SPIRITUAL POTENTIAL THAT SO MANY WILL FEEL AS THIS MA BRINGS THE BABA NEEM KAROLI TO THEM IN THE FORM OF WHO THEIR BELOVED IS.
I knew that by letting more breath into your bodies you would learn how to conquer all of earth.
And yet I also learnt in the moment that to judge another would bring so much pain, even in the judging of one’s own self.
Mantras like WHAT I WAS? does not enter into cold graves of the heart of now.
Mantras like WHAT WILL I BE? KEEPS ONE AS COLD AS ICE.
Mantras like WHAT I AM? does not speak truth of life or death.
WHO AM I? TAKES ONE ACROSS THE OCEAN OF LIFE AND DEATH AND THROUGH THE KARMIC BLOCKS, BRINGING MATTER BACK TO THE CREATIVE HEAVEN AND EARTH AND THIS MATTER, THIS SACREDNESS IS CALLED KASHI.
One can learn deeply in the BARDO OF DEATH, learn to surrender to the sureness of WHAT IS
Have you ever licked a rain drop straight from the sky with out it first touching the earth.
This also is a Puja of Purity and when done with gratitude, the earth and your hearts are nourished.
There are no days of wrath in the Mother Kali’s Life.
There are no dreadful times that the Mother Smashan brings to Her child.
WHAT MOMENT IN LIFE DOES THE BODY BEGIN TO DECAY? A GRADUAL DECAY FROM THE LOSS, THE LOSS OF SPIRIT, SPIRIT TO GO ON?
HEAR AND FEEL MY CHILDREN THE SHADOWY WINGS OF ANGELS THAT YOU DID NOT KNOW EXISTED.
Perhaps one looks to see if God is there in the last second of breath.
THE MIND DOES NOT LOSE SIGHT, IN THE DARKNESS NOR DOES IT LOSE ITS OWN HOLY LIGHT.
There is no contempt for ones self deep enough to turn the Mother Kali away from the tear stained faces of Her children.
Tormented Hearts are all of our responsibility.
We can breathe love upon the torment and cry out to any lost heart, to identify themselves with the Mother’s Angels.
I ask my chelas as I do every day, to have the courage to serve.
Unless you shut your eyes tightly to all of humanities needs then you will have the SIGHT OF THE MOTHER’S HEART.
As this Ma begins the journey around our Ganga tomorrow at the start of our Jimmy Boy’s Memorial, and your faces I will see, I tell you now I will speak to my God of the Upanisad where it is written, IF ONE CLEARLY BEHOLDS HIMSELF AS THE SELF, AS GOD AS THE LORD OF WHAT HAS BEEN AND WHAT WILL BE, HE DOES NOT SHRINK AWAY FROM GOD.
VERILY, IT IS WRITTEN IN THE UPANISADS WHILE WE ARE HERE WE MAY KNOW OF THIS, IF (we know it ) NOT WE WOULD BE IGNORANT GREAT IS THE DESTRUCTION, THOSE WHO KNOW THIS BECOME IMMORTAL WHILE OTHERS GO ONLY TO SORROW.
The explanation is the THE ETERNAL and THE BELOVED may be realized EVEN while we live in our worldly body.
To fail to realize our Beloved God or Goddess, is to live in ignorance, to be subjected to birth and death.
The knowers of the Beloved are immortal, others continue in the region of pain and sorrow.
These words from the Upanisad can be from any Scripture of any Faith that teaches to love God and Goddess in any Form.
My Pujas and Prayers go out to all your Beloved’s, the Beloved’s of your hearts.
I ask your Beloved’s to hold you tight this night and every night of your lives.
This is my Puja and this is my Prayer.
I love you all so very much.
Sleep my son, my Jimmy Boy in the ARMS OF YOUR BELOVED.
This is also my Puja and my Prayer.
Love Ma Jaya
Tenzin Yangchen
Jai Kali Ma Ki Jai
Always at His Feet Our Neem Karoli Baba Ki Jai
