Om Ganesha,
Morning Pujas and Prayers
May 28, 2005
Namaste my chelas all over the world,
Last night we had our Little Jaya’s memorial.
The night bloomed in its own nature of love as cow dust time came into our heart crying MY JAYA MY LITTLE JAYA MY BEAUTIFUL JAYA.
I listened to the sounds of Kashi and I felt my little girl.
A little courageous child that all of you have gotten to know from the Darshan Line and from Kashi Ashram.
I was talking to Little Jaya in the dusk when I heard Her Daddy speak.
Words I will never forget.
Even thought they are very hard to remember, the heart hurts so.
I watched Daddy hardly able to compose himself.
And when he finished with just a whisper, he came to my arms and I asked him if I could share his words.
He just handed them to me like a silent gift and I realized that our Jaya was there awakening our heart and the experience was wondrous.
She is our experience of life and our joy of death for who could be afraid of death when our baby is there waiting with her beautiful smile and tremendous heart
Each time her parents thanked me for the Memorial I was shocked, for it is I her name sake, her Guru Mother who must thank all of them.
I will not pretend to be detached from the pain for even this moment my heart bleeds for the sound of her voice.
Yet there she is, and Kashi is her Home.
Yet there she is and my heart is her cave.
This family, every one of them are the stuff life is made of.
So how can this child ever die in our minds.
I love you my baby girl.
Here are your Daddy’s words and his heart.
Love Ma
Jai Kali Ma Ki Jai
Always at His Feet Of Our Neem Karoli Baba Ki Jai
