Om Ganesha,
Evening Pujas and Prayers
July 23, 2005
Namaste my chelas all over the world,
Anger comes from a place in your self where the ego tells you that you do not like the out come of different situations.
When you have little self esteem you some times feel that your actions have no consequence what so ever.
Through meditation one begins to give up unworthiness.
Refuse to allow negative energies to rule your life.
The first step toward giving up your anger is to first admit that you are angry.
One can choose to change.
It can take a long time to actually change yet every moment toward giving up anger is a change in it self.
Those who have poor communication think that others should know how they feel.
Learn to express your self with out worrying about rejection.
Refusing to talk when angry is just as negative as yelling and screaming.
Every day look around you with great awareness instead of anger.
You will be surprised how many would love to hear your opinions.
One gains self esteem as one sits in Darshan or reads this Darshan Line in the moment.
Then you can go over and over how many you want to.
It is the original Shakti of the Mother Guru that comes to you through the words.
The Darshan Line gives the chela a sense of empowerment and a deep sense of love.
Reset your anger clock.
See how long you can hold out until something angers you.
Watch how the time gets longer and longer between bouts of anger and the pain of anger gets less and less.
Weigh the disadvantages of anger against the advantages of letting it go or offering it all up.
That is not to mean do not work hard for a cause.
I have always felt that every one should have a cause you would die for.
Mine is human rights for every one.
And the fight against AIDS is part of this, a great part of this.
Yet I have found when I got real angry I could not think and could not advance toward opening peoples hearts.
Oh sure I get angry, yet I also get things done.
Yet I do not try to get even, ( sorry my Raja Ma Jaya, my Brooklyn Pal ) I try to get ahead and leave the bigoted in the dirt far behind in my dust.
I as your Guru Mother hurt for humanity, yet to sit and do nothing is the same as letting indifference run wild.
Always weigh the short term with the long term benefits.
WE WILL HAVE GAY MARRIAGES.
WE WILL HAVE EQUAL RIGHTS FOR ALL PEOPLE.
We all just have to work harder and be more aware.
When I was a little girl and sneaking into the Oceana movie, I remember the rich kids from Manhattan Beach with their nannies always being good and then when their nannies went to get some candy they would start with the poor kids and then they would just sit there when nanny came back and saw us kids answering back and threatening their charges and we kids would get in big trouble.
One time we were taken to the new jail to teach us a lesson in Coney Island.
The new jail was nicer than most of our houses and so what did we learn from that.
Ok now I am loosing myself.
If we were smart, we would have just laughed in those kids faces.
And then they would have gotten mad and in trouble.
My chelas life teaches us all different lessons every day of our life.
Yet to know you have the love of your Guru Mother brings you into the now.
Every thing from childhood and past life times brings one wisdom and this wisdom lessons the pains from abuse.
Face your mistakes, face the stuff that makes you so upset and do something about it.
Help someone else face all the abuse in their lives.
Help some one else get out of a abusive situation.
This is the key out of all the Cubby Holes.
Facing your demons demands courage and strength.
Call on your Mother Kali to stand by your side.
She will never ever refuse you.
Breathe in deeply my chelas and feel connected to your Guru Mother.
Breathe out deeply and feel connected to the Universal Mother.
Do this breathing over and over until you feel the Courage of your Mother’s heart.
This is my Puja and this is my Prayer to the Black Mother.
Mother bring my chelas the Courage and Love to face every thing with love in their hearts and strength in their actions.
I love you all so very much my chelas.
Love Ma
Jai Kali Ma Ki Jai
Always at His Feet Of Our Neem Karoli Baba Ki Jai