Om Ganesha,
Morning Pujas and Prayers
July 26, 2006
Our Shodie’s Birthday.
My Yashoda, one may think of years past as they grow old together or grief that brings pangs of sadness in the deepest part of the heart.
What ever time comes upon me as I teach and share with my chelas, my thoughts are of you and the way you selflessly serve not only your Ma, but the way you serve others and always bringing me my own chela’s point of view.
Sometimes when I spend all day and night in prayer I find that I wait for you like a lonely room.
Then my heart aches for I know the condition of the world and I also know that I will not be able to hide from my Shody any part of my heart that shows on my face, how sad I am with all the wars and the forgetting of AIDS in so many hearts.
You can see the void I am left with after hours of praying and yet the bombing keeps coming killing and destroying whole countries.
Yes I am a Jew and proud of it to the core of my being.
Yet I am Guru to thousands and thousands of those who live in the far east and are spread out all over hiding in their houses shaking with fear.
My children are on both sides of the political fence.
Suffering and death seems to be the way of life this day in time and space.
And then there is our Blessed Kashi.
I believe only you know the depth of my love for my Ashram and my chelas.
For it is you I speak to of it all.
I am so proud of my chelas.
This I tell you.
As you listen with one ear and the other ear tries to know how I am doing with my health.
Our Swami Bhava Tarani says we have to go to couples counseling because we always argue over every thing.
I have seen my chelas back away from us when we really get started.
Yet we are not arguing, how can we argue when I am always right.
It is just that you have to understand this !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So Happy Birthday my closest and dearest chela and friend and pain in the ass.
I can not live my life with out you.
I celebrate your life, ( until you annoy me to no end )
Our Baba blesses you, our Swami blesses you and all the Gods and Goddess bless you.
Most of all Mother Kashi Herself blesses the Mother’s chela with the gift of your Paramaguru and Guru always with you and in you.
Each chela means every thing to me, more than any one could ever know.
Yet you my Shody always knows.
Mother Earth listens to my Prayers, the Great Heavens beyond the sky and stars listen to my prayers and my Shody has to listen, you see you have no choice.
I love you my friend, my chela, my daughter, my Mother.
Be happy this day knowing that your Guru Mother will never stop protecting Her children ever even from themselves.
I live for my chelas and live to tell you all about them.
Happy Birthday.
You made me give you your presents, you forced me to give you your presents weeks ago.
So I guess I will just give you my words that swims in my heart even when you start arguments with me.
I love you.
Thank you for giving me your children to run my life and my Ashram.
Thank you for taking our Achariya Shiva to be the Father of my two achariya sons.
I bow low, lower than ever before to our Neem Karoli Baba with such gratitude and joy in all my chelas.
Love Ma
Jai Kali Ma Ki Jai
Always at His Feet Of Our Neem Karoli Baba Ki Jai