Om Ganesha,
Evening Pujas and Prayers
April 11, 2007
Namaste my chelas all over the world.
Dead Dawn Darshan always sets the day for your Ma or I should say it is like my afternoon being I start my Pujas at 2:30 am.
To be with my residents of over 32 years and the others fills my heart with such joy.
We have lived so long with the bells of Kashi ringing in our hearts.
And yet even Mother Kashi Herself cries tears when sorrow touches my chelas.
Our beautiful Anasuya’s baby was buried this day, our Trishula Ma’s Grandson.
I can only cry tears of anguish with my child Anasuya who has always been close to my heart.
I dedicate this, my life to bringing happiness to his mom and his Grandma who has gone through so much pain.
So little, so sweet, and gone so fast.
He rises like the risen Christ in the arms of the Mother Mary.
In the rain that falls upon our hearts, I wash this little ones face, the face of the angel he is.
So many kisses his mom has placed upon his brow.
So many times did he lay in her arms and so many wonderful memories that one will never forget of such a darling infant of the Mother.
The physical heart is cut wide open and little sliver’s of glass pierce us all deeply for our Anasuya.
Our eyelids grow heavy with unshed tears and yet my child my Anasuya was blessed so very blessed with the few golden moments she had with her beautiful baby boy.
All of us receive the Grace of this little angel.
And as our Anasuya’s heart grows more clear and understands the beauty of our baby’s love even for just a little while I her Guru Mother will hold her and her children close to my own breast and never leave them go.
The harshness of death brings sad tears, yet his little wings sweep past our faces caressing all of us to him.
His love is greater than the tears now cast.
My Anasuya, I your Guru Mother cry with you and for you and will always be there when ever you need me.
You have this divine connection to your Baby Angel that you will have for the rest of your life.
Your Mom is my child and so are you and your babies.
Kashi Ashram is your Home any time you want to come Home, I shall welcome you with wide open arms.
It is not possible at this moment to get past your grieving and you should not have to.
Yet you must know deep in your heart, how many hearts of Mother’s who have loved and lost you have brought hope to with your courage and the joy you have in your children.
Such a surge of love comes through my heart just for you my child Anasuya, I AM HERE ALWAYS MY SPECIAL CHILD.
I love you deeply and fully,
I love you my Trishula Ma.
Soon I will have you all in my arms.
Until that day feel our hearts merge.
Our Baby Angel, rest well, love well and let us all know you can hear our love spoken through our Pujas and Prayers.
Love Ma
Jai Kali Ma Ki Jai
Always at His Feet, Of Our Neem Karoli Baba Ki Jai