Om Ganesha,
Morning Pujas and Prayers
August 7, 2007
Namaste my chelas all over the world.
So many of you have written in about your Ma and death.
You all have been touched by the man who laid at my Feet who came flowing in the Mother’s Waters at death.
What a legacy he gave us all.
In the midst of waves and the durable sun going down painting the sky with a great artist brush death came to my Feet.
You who live on the Cremation Grounds of Kashi are so use to death that you know how to greet the Lord Yama are so surpassed and grateful when death finds His Ma anywhere.
For this I am grateful how well you have all learnt and continue to learn.
What does one have in the midst of life’s waves?
What does one feel if the heart is open as if a thunderbolt has melted all the defenses around this fourth chakra?
What does one have when unfathomable solutions are sought after in day to day living and found?
One has the Mother.
I found myself living suddenly at the Feet Of My Guruji so many years ago this lifetime.
I found my self flowing toward the Feet of My Guruji and not knowing how to sail the great seas of spiritual life.
All I had was the Mother and I was She.
I followed and suddenly I touched His Magnificent Face, the Face Of Laxmanji My Beloved Guruji.
Do not seek me He said and then draw back.
Follow always and they will follow you.
Do not seek me He said and then draw back and they will follow you. I laugh at the moment now as I would never draw back from my Baba even when He took the Form of the fiercest of fierce Mother Smashan Kali.
My Baba says to paint and I paint.
My Baba says to Paint Jaya Natha Tantric Mother Series and I paint as He says.
My Baba says to paint Hanumanji and I paint Hanumanji.
My Baba says to paint a series of 10 asanas or Kali Natha Yogic Postures of the Mother and I have already started the sketches for four of my Ashrams and for who ever wants to have them for their own altars.
I will paint the sketches when I get Home.
And so I followed and lived in the midst of the waves of the Ganga of His Heart.
And so I say to my chelas DO NOT SEEK ME AND TURN BACK.
Am I repeating my Baba?
You better believe I am.
Yet He tells me constantly that no Guru has ever loved chela like this Guru loves Hers.
This takes me back because I must ask, Don’t you love me Baba the way I love them?
He answers you are me and your love is mine.
And suddenly at the age of 67 I understand these words that I have been saying to you for years and years.
There is no Guru who loves Her chelas the way this Ma loves you.
DO NOT SEEK ME AND THEN TURN BACK.
Last night as the dark and the moon and stars filled me I thought of you chela.
These are Earths Thoughts for in Samadhi there are no thoughts or time or space.
I held you all in my arms and decided that I will teach you all how to marry death in a spiritual wedding of hearts so one never becomes afraid in life of death.
Mother Smashan’s RIGHT VICIOUS EYELID shields you from any fear of death.
Her LEFT GRACIOUS EYELID LEADS YOU INTO THE LIGHT.
And I will be there, I promise.
There is no shield that is stronger than the Mother Guru’s Love and protection and I will be THERE!
Remember always that I live at His Feet always holding tight and so HE WILL BE THERE WITH ME.
DO NOT SEEK ME AND DRAW OR TURN BACK.
I touch His Love like a babe touches her Mother’s Breast.
I touch His Feet like I am His Toe.
Then how can I be where He is not?
And so we begin learning of the Great Bridge that leads us to the land of the Bones.
WHERE ARE MY BONES, WHERE ARE THEY BURIED OR WHERE ARE THEY BURNT?
I am yours my chelas.
And you are building your Homes to be with me for the rest of my life on Kashi.
How must one tell you of the Grace this will bring you?
My legacy is my Ganga.
My Kashi’s Ganga Jaya now is begging to learn just like my Dhumavati begged in Paris years ago.
I am begging our Baba to allow me to teach the Great Tantric Bridge Death which flows over the Ganga and he has given me permission and so I am and I will.
I love you my chelas with all my heart and all of my Soul.
Love Ma
Jai Kali Ma Ki Jai
Always at His Feet Of Our Neem Karoli Baba Ki Jai