Om Ganesha,
Morning Pujas and Prayers
August 9, 2007
Namaste my chelas all over the world.
When I was a child and Big Henry was teaching me about life ( although I did not understand that was what it was at the time ) He would say, Girl child think big know big and be big.
I loved to think at times when hunger struck hard thinking was all I had and it was a magnificent way to go inside and dream.
What he was saying fascinated me and so I began my journey of thinking big.
I find myself teaching my babies the same thing.
As Natha and Jewel Jaya was placed in my arms so early in life.
I knew that these babes would be blessed with the Guru’s hands all of their lives.
The older ones were also placed in the Guru’s protective arms as early as a few hours old and came to Darshan at a few days old.
And indeed my babies are all so blessed as young woman and men and their babes are blessed in the arms of the Guru.
What a experience for these children.
In the water with my Bhajarangi Hanuman yesterday, I looked at this handsome young man as he was speaking to His Ma and I thanked our Baba for the ease my chelas slipped into Mother and Father Hood.
At one time in Darshan there would be twenty or more thirsty babes at their Mother’s Breast suckling away and I would be in bliss.
They grew young and strong and healthy and learned to think big and be big.
No spoiling of these babes only blessings and love.
And so my Big Henry words are handed down generation after generation.
My K.P. Hanuman ( I can’t believe that you all have me calling him that ) is now in Japan climbing Mount Fiji with his Mom our Achariya Krishna Priya.
This is the babe I caught at birth and has clung to his Ma every since.
( He speaks Japanese now ).
He better get his little ass home soon.
He is teaching English in japan.
I am so proud.
My Madhava just worked in the Intensive Care Unit and loved it.
And on and on it goes, my pride has no bounds.
My Kali Mirashyam born into my arms and who was at my Feet since birth was taught to be in the Guru’s arms and she never left them.
As they grew older and they thought I did not know of the magic window they would sneak out of, ( I didn’t ) but they will never know this, they got closer and closer to me.
And of course my Heir my So See Shiva Cho who is my heart of hearts warms all of our hearts.
And then there is my life, my joy, my pride my Grandson Tony Cho who lives to take care of His Grandma and Auntie Ananda Devi and who has made it big in Miami.
Who at this moment is planning to bring the kids to wet and wild in Orlando to celebrate his birthday, ( where he has a big business meeting. )
This young man was a day old when he was in every one’s arms in Darshan and every one was fighting to hold him.
On and on I can go writing about all of them.
Yet they are writing their own Darshans by being so close to each other and the Mother’s Heart.
I am slowly calling them Home, yet they do not know it yet MY SHIVA KALI!
My Laxsman who eased my heart when my heart needed to be healed as only he could do.
Each and every one of them raised by the Guru or had they raised me.
All this from one Homeless Man who took care of a little white girl and made under the board walk the greatest school there could be.
One day I will name them all, like my Subhadra at a few hours old in my arms with such hair and she still is in my arms.
And our Ganga Das and my Jaya Ma engaged and SOON TO BE WED- GANGA DAS HONEY!
How can I explain the love I have for our Hanuman Jaya Shakti such a wonderful young woman.
I must complement my Sudamini and my Jayanta who placed that little babe in my arms and he never left them.
So many aunts and uncles.
I could write a history of a hundred or more children who came into my life and who became strong and learned how to serve even a day or two after birth.
No spoiling here, except for their Guru Mother.
After each babe was placed in my arms, there was an empty blank space of the Formless that I could see over their heads that I knew they would fill with integrity and fulfillment as the years went by.
Some came into my life a little later though not much like my Madhava yet my eye was on Him from birth.
My Shiva and my Shakti my God How I love them.
I whisper sweet nothings in their ears each time they come with their flowers for their Guru during Darshan a few times a week.
And then there is Pops the Father of my boys Achariya Durga Das and Achariya Rudra Das.
He adopted my two boys and the love he has for them and they for him is beyond.
Pops Achariya Shiva.
Our Achariya Durga Das ( the elder excuse me Achariya) has been uncle to every child who ever sat at my Feet ) from my Punjabi Princess our Jaya Sati Ma to our youngest has always put the children including my Jimmy Boy first and foremost.
And of course my Jewel, the Jewel of my life our Jewel Lotus, her first breath was taken in my arms when Mom and Dad brought her to me and I named Her.
Billy Hanuman who grew up at my Feet kicking and screaming and now one of my closest chelas this little boy wants so much to take care of Ma.
Ganga Nityanand who brings hugs to his Guru and always says I will never forget you Ma always is close to me no matter what.
I must say my two shining stars my Ganga Devi and my Bhagavati have been taught since birth by their parents to always be close to their Mother Guru and they have and always will be.
I say to them GIRL CHILD THINK BIG KNOW BIG AND BE BIG.
Of course all this comes from serving others and they all know this in their hearts.
Andy Hanuman my sensitive handsome son, has always been close and always will be.
Indrani Indrani Indrani I miss you so much when you are not in my arms.
And to think she and her brother my Shiva Shambo were born in my rooms as their Mom ( so help me God ) was baking and cooking trays so I could feed the poor.
All this writing today all because of the hour spent in the water with our Bhajarangi Hanuman.
My fascination with thoughts continued leading me into life at the age of 6 or 7 into conversations with the Gods and Goddesses and with life as well as death.
And then when thoughts began to disappear and only the breath of my Guru remained I began to bring my own breath into every new babe who came to me or was born into my arms.
Little new born warriors born to Mother’s and Fathers who knew what it was not to spoil children and bring them to Darshan and to teach them how to serve.
My LA Ganesha and His beautiful bride’s wedding touched my heart as never before.
Both looked at each other and their Guru with such love that I still tear at the memory.
Big Henry taught me to have love penetrate beyond the realm of thought so I could discover the inherent limitlessness that lies beneath thoughts and bring all into the ARMS OF OUR BABA.
No complaining from my young Mother’s only gratitude of new life at the Guru’s Feet.
Jaya Priya, Jaya Priya Jaya Priya who loves Her Guru beyond love and I her.
She sits right there in Darshan so close that she can feel my breath.
My Grandson my Amritha’s Jai, I can take him this moment into the completeness of Shakti, He was born a Sadhu and he is one,
He just has to get through school and then I will take him.
My Kwang Mae, my daughter who conquered life and is a warrior on the path.
I love her so very much.
Tara Tara Tara, her every wish since she was a babe in my arms has been for her ashram and her Ma.
I love you honey.
Govinda becoming such a smart and wonderful young man who knows how much I love him and his sister Naga Devi who tries to rebel and rebels right back into my arms.
My Radhe Radhe Radhe Bolo laid her head in my lap when only a babe and has kept it there.
Going for her masters.
How proud I.
Her wife Sia whom I also raised, knows of Her Guru’s love.
My Ramani our Sebs princess whom I love so dearly will find her way and grow into the young woman she longs to be.
And my spoiled little Girija whom truly was my sister Shirdi Ma’s life, what a beautiful young woman she has become.
She always got the most lolly pops.
My Durgaya how proud of you your mom is,
My Durgaya how proud of you your Guru Mother is.
Know my love honey and know I am always with you.
My Arlo and my Jackie Uma’s kids and grandchildren are my family.
Each child I watch grow and I am so proud of my babies.
Even though my Gopi gave me every gray hair I have, She is the light of the son in my heart.
Every one of them I could love them and hug them and keep them close and I do.
My Grandchildren are so close to their Grandma Ma.
I can not believe my Anthony is already married and how I love my Granddaughter in law.
And so the list goes on.
So many more and yet I would be here for hours and hours if I brought them all to the words of this Darshan Line.
Please if I did not put your name, I did not forget you, I will write about you again.
Did Big Henry know?
I know that my Baba did.
They all will be born to your daughters and sons and they will know their Mother Guru and they will be blessed all of their lives.
Their parents will see to that.
I will see to that said my Baba.
Some times the world seeps in yet hardly ever.
My babes were born with the Mother’s Breath upon them.
My chelas you have come on this journey this day, feel proud as I took you through many years or was it life times of sitting at the Feet Of Your Guru.
Very few got lost on the way to God and Goddess.
Most sit at my Feet absorbing the love with respect and joy and every time they see their Guru they know that I am watching but not waiting for they already have arrived.
I love you all so very much.
Love Ma
Jai Kali Ma Ki Jai
Always at the Feet Of Our Neem Karoli Baba Ki Jai