Om Ganesha,
Morning Pujas and Prayers.
July 31, 2008
Namaste my chelas all over the world.
I spent the night doing Pujas for all of you on the balcony here over looking the ocean.
When I opened my eyes at 2:30 am I was disappointed to find that it was not the Ganga on our Mother Ashram yet is not all the waters in the world the Ganga?
There is no place like our place, our Sacred Ashram Home.
Our Ganga flows in our blood.
There is only the present when we are in the river of our dreams.
When one is not in the present moment you start to project what you think others think of you.
This brings torment to your heart and leads you straight into the path of unworthiness and the space of INDIFFERENCE.
The karmic space of INDIFFERENCE explodes with self hate and one begins to become quite nonchalant giving the impression of INDIFFERENCE.
Which when you look deep enough this space is truly about pain that you are hiding behind the feeling of not caring what others think of you.
Due to indifference there is a space that is barren of vitality of the living moment or the living action of the now.
You begin to protect your feelings or the ego starts to nudge you into the space of separation.
When ever you are not in the moment what you do or say truly has little validity.
To be in the present moment is to know a certain kind of cleansing of the souls.
The Karmic Space Of Indifference is filled with fear and fear can not live in the breath of reality of the present moment.
Breathing with awareness can consume fears, fears of all kind.
One at times runs from the Guru in the name of many false feelings of the heart.
They are running from the moment.
One begins to make excuses how they have to live in a certain way.
Yet the only way one can live in the moment is to live in the honesty of the now.
I have seen so many make up stories that they think is true as they try to run from life.
One can not live when they bring pain to others.
Making excuses for INDIFFERENCE is making excuses for what ever the ego wants you to want others to think.
I have seen people hurt others so badly in the name of their own happiness and in the end they are not happy or joyful themselves.
Living in the moment a certain truth comes to your heart and integrity is born.
It is this Light of integrity that leads you out of this KARMIC SPACE OF INDIFFERENCE.
This leads you to a continuous flow of conscious self thoughts that is always attached to the awareness of the breath.
Living a lie or being on the path of untruth is a sure way of placing yourself in the way of the ego’s demands.
Karma begins to fall all around you like the game of dominoes, one presentation of one lie begins another and another.
On Gurupurnama as each chela came up to the Mother they all put aside the preoccupation’s of the ego and was so open I could not hold my chelas tight enough.
They were all celebrating the moment of love between Guru and chelas and the heart becomes still and quiet inside.
The still mind is ever present in the moment as one makes their way out of the Karmic Space Of Indifference.
The ego can not invade the stillness of love.
Out of the Karmic Space Of Indifference on can not be partially aware.
Partially aware is being caught in the space of THE DESIRE TO BE RIGHT AND THEREFORE ALL ACTIVITY IS LIVED IN THE SHADOW OF THE EGO AND ONE LIVES A PARTIAL LIFE.
I look how my chelas all gathered together to make our Sacred Kashi run like She never ran before.
How the publishing committee got Ma to write and write and how there is so much more harmony than ever before on our Sacred Mother Ashram.
I watch how all my Ashrams want desperately out of the Karmic Spaces and how each chela all over the world reads and rereads the Mother’s Words.
It seems as if every one is becoming more and more aware of their bodies as they live in their heart of awareness.
And every moment life brings more and more ability to be able to share and to love and to be in the moment of truth.
THIS MY CHELA IS THE LIVING TRUTH OF THE HEART.
Love is the answer, love with out being possessive, love with only truth, love with out fear.
These thoughts of love has us all knowing the action of the Mother Goddess as we have come to the living moment together.
The living moment is a cleansing of the body mind and Soul.
It allows no deception.
I am so proud of our Ashrams and my chelas.
It is as if the weeds of untruths have been pulled up and are being used as fuel for all of our hearts to burn with passion for all the Gods and all the Goddesses.
The ego tries to transform energies to a lower part of life thus bringing you into the KARMIC SPACE OF INDIFFERENCE.
Yet it is the Mother who calls out to you and will accompany you through out your many life times on the path of service and truth.
The ego can not win as the Mother is watching all of the time and believe me I am.
Wisdom can not be put in words, wisdom is a state of stillness.
As you hurt others, Karma catches up and catches you and brings you to many spaces that are too small to hold the glowing heart of one who is devoted and passionate about spirituality.
In the total awareness of your breath you become the whole you, who does not fit in any of the Karmic Spaces.
I love you my chelas with all my heart.
I am proud of you all.
Live in the moment of the now and feel this love of the living Guru.
My Yogiji would tell me all about devotion and that is what my chelas have toward the Mother and I should never forget this.
He would speak of those who hid the truth hiding behind lies not knowing that the Teacher already knew.
There is not a day that goes by that I do not miss my Yogiji.
I loved His way with words and His love for me and my chelas.
I loved how he warned me of hearts that were not in the moment and how He laughed when I told Him I did not care, I would just love and I will teach my chelas to love.
I bow to my Baba Neem Karoli who has given me the wisdom to write this book of life’s journey and my Swami Nityananda who gave me the strength to walk on into life’s many spaces always watching the beauty of my chela’s lives.
We are expanding more and more every day and love fills us all more and more.
And my chelas, so much more to come.
I love you all so very much.
Love Ma
Jai Kali Ma Ki Jai
Always at His Feet Of Our Neem Karoli Baba Ki Jai