Om Ganesha
Morning Pujas and Prayers
Sept. 2, 2010
Namaste my chelas all over the world.
The greatest ecstasy one can find in the human body is becoming one with The Beloved.
Yes this can occur when you least expect it mostly during meditation.
The body partakes of the feast of the soul.
The Soul pervades the body with the sensation of the breath coming in and out.
This is merging love into love.
The inner relationship between Soul and the body can bring a great peace to the body.
I will be teaching you all about this when I get Home.
I look forward to sharing with you as my Baba shared with me.
When we are self indulged with serving our body with food and drugs and such we forget about the Soul and fall into the ego’s trap.
No matter who your Beloved is just think on your Beloved and feel your heart open especially when you yearn to be held by your Beloved.
Our Baba would laugh at me when I use to ask Him to go into the other room so I could see and feel what my chelas felt when they longed for their Beloved.
This would last about one second when I would beg for Him to come to me again.
How can I learn to teach my Baba I would ask.
JUST THINK ON HOW YOU FELT FOR THE SECOND THAT I LEFT.
And I do and it is enough to understand your excitement of your Ma coming Home although I wrote this Darshan Line every day.
In the shimmering veil of the ego it can try to tell you to let go of your love for your Beloved so it does not hurt as much.
This is when a very real battle rages with in you and your love for your Beloved always wins.
This is not just about Guru and chelas though you are my chelas and so close to my heart, this is about when the seeker forgets that the Christ or the Mother or Hanuman or any Divine Being is always with you.
You begin to want to have immediate self satisfaction and you get in trouble with drugs and drinks.
When I was young and spent my days and nights under the board walk with Big Henry and Old Hudson Chicky and Chews I knew that I would die if they ever sent me away and I did cry when I had to go to school.
In those days there were truant officers that roamed the beach and board walk looking for kids playing hooky.
Big Henry would tell me THEY ARE GONNA GET YOU GIRL CHILD NOW GO TO SCHOOL AND MAKE ME PROUD.
One day I asked them when I was in first grade WHAT IS THE NAME OF MY SCHOOL TELL ME AND I WILL GO.
And I will never forget how Chickey stood up and answered as if She was going to win a million dollars for the right answer P.S. 253
I was so shocked and to this day 63 years latter, I still can not figure it out how she knew it.
They had to go to a lot of trouble to find this out and when I am down I think of all the love they had for this little white girl child as they would say and I would smile.
( My Mata Giri Jaya has thousands of pages of my life under the board walk and I promise her one day i would allow it to be published but not yet and when it is published it will be dedicated to her as she spent over thirty years working on it.)
Yet when I could not go there any more due to growing up very quickly and understanding how much trouble they would get into if the police came as they often did and would find a young girl who was getting mature even in her ninth year hanging out with them under the board walk, I would remember their love.
Yet you find that the teachings of your beloveds are always flowing in your veins and in your blood.
So when you find your Guru or Guru finds you never want them out of your sight.
I know I am rambling yet I am getting as excited as you to come Home to our Sacred Ashram.
You see my chelas when you miss your Ma and you look good at your feelings then you must know that your Ma misses you and that is all of you in every one of my Ashrams.
You who live with the Guru on Her Sacred Land must always be grateful as grateful as your Ma is for the beauty of Kashi.
I love that so many houses are being built in our Village Of Kashi.
Is it time for so many more of you to come Home and build on your Sacred Land?
My chelas I am asking all of you if there is any one who is willing to write us grants for our By The River.
It is filling up and we are doing so much as my dream comes true, yet I never realized how many of you are falling in love with those who come to live there.
There is so much that we need for our magnificent BY THE RIVER.
I love you my chelas with all my heart and all my Soul.
Every last one of you even the pain in the asses.
You are my child and I am your Ma.
LIVE WITH IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!
p.s Every day I am a living Puja for my Achariya Shiva as He goes through this hard time.
And we will win this battle.
Even with out hair this son of mine is absolutely gorgeous.
If ever you want to join me in the most intense puja and meditation for my Achariya Shiva just sit and think of your Ma praying for Her Shiva.
I am also spending so much of my time this retreat holding my little girl Jaya Darshana and her very brave and wonderful family in my arms and I am never going to let go.
I am also holding all of her care givers and all those who love this angel.
Love Ma
Jai Kali Ma Ki Jai
Always at His Feet Of Our Neem Karoli Baba Ki Jai
My Pujas and Prayers is that all my chelas have full and vibrant hearts.